So tomorrow I have my pulmonary function test (checking my lungs) and after the results come back from that and the test I did last week we'll know if I'm able to handle the IL2 treatment. I have every expectation to have no issues with either test.
In the meantime I've been really refocusing my head on the inner steel I know will be needed to get the maximum benefit from this process. It's not an easy thing, once the doctors decide to try and "make sure" you're aware of what you're getting into, but what could they possibly expect me to do? Besides, I could use a little kick start to weight loss right?
This week I heard the horrible news about a coworker deciding to take his own life. I'm so mad about that, and even found it crept into my dreams last night. For someone so vital and healthy to not value what he had reminds me of when I've felt lost in the past, but I've always known there are better things to do than stop living. I don't know the inner pain he felt, but I do know the pain he's left, and it's not okay.
We have to all do what is best for us, and for me what is best is to live.
More to come...
You'd better believe it brother. At the end of the day, choose life.
ReplyDelete"... what is best is to live."
ReplyDeleteDamn straight, Doss. Thank you for these little snippets into the human side of your battle. I'd rather there not be a battle at all, but, for what its worth, life has an amazing way of forcing you to focus, to prioritize, and you learn what's important... and what's NOT so important. Like sku builds :)
You are missed, and prayed for, and thought of with a smile, because we know you'll kick the shit out of this.
<3 jen